I haven't posted a journal entry iiiiin 6 months exactly 0.o
Doesn't feel that long... i cant be bothered to work it out but its been longer since i even submitted anything.... it's not that i haven't been drawing (i find myself doodling without realising it more often than not) I've just been laaaaazy and a lil-bit preocupied...

SO i started college at camden hated it there and moved to westminster kingsway which is better but i still miss the days of year 11 even though college its self is better than school..

I went to Amsterdam with Panos in January which was magical.. For anyone who smokes, drinks, likes magic mushrooms etc it is the place to be.. one of the places we went to was this Hash Cafe called Abraxes which was insane- the first day we got there a bunch of tourists came in, picked up, had a joint each then left... we saw them an hour later in a horse drawn carriage screaming and giggling! The police are really different over there as well, like if your a tourist and stoned out of your mind you can just wander up to them start a conversation and they won't even bat an eye-lid! I think even if your not into any of the above it's still worth going

I will get round to updating shit like my art eventually but part of the fact i haven't is that app. Deviant art own/ have copyright to anything you post .. anyone know if this is true? Anyway hope everyone is enjoying their New Years!

Your it 0.o

Mood: good.. thoughtful
Listening to: Last night- The Strokes

Rules : The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.

1- I can't just stroke or cuddle one cat in a household.. its not fair on the others

2- The clasp on a necklace has to remain at the back of my neck (( hate it when it rides round/ when my necklaces end up all tangled > T_T ))

3- I'm so much of a fidgit where by if i try to stop myself then i just start twitching or rocking backward and forward.. So i always have to be doing something as well

4- Have to answer the phone on z third ring

5- Always end up visiting the Boggle Tree.. at leist once a day

6- Labels must always remain tucked into clothes.

Goona tag.. Lily, Ruby Lulu, Almaas, Karim, Freya


Life is what you make it and its yours to mold.. Make it good!!
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SMILE!! Today is the tomorrow you where worried about yesterday

CYST

Mood: good.. thoughtful
Listening to: Follow the Reaper- Children of Bodon
Reading: Child of a Dream
Watching: A is for Andromeda

Woke up on wednesday, day before my art exam and wtf i could not open my left eye and my vision was completely blurry...
It started with some random itch id been getting for days. Then made the mistake of wearing lots of make-up ((regularly go panda eyed )) and then forgot to take it off =/
So went straight down to the hospital who gave me 3 diff kinds of eye drops and gave me Piriton (Which is an anti-inflametry).. they said it was probably down to "hay fever" (even tho i dont get hay fever.. ever). Spent the whole day at home doing art despite being partially blind, in a lot of pain, dopey as fuck from the piriton and generally not being in a good mood.. Generally just extremely stressed in all major aspects of my life =/
Woke up on thursday at like 6 my eye was hurting sooo much and by this point my vision was soo much worse so i started to kinda freak out.. it being the first day of my exam n all.. so went back to the hospital they flipped my eyelid over (litreally) then came to the conclusion that i had a Cyst running under the whole length of my top eye lid T_T.. They then gave me some anti-biotics n said that i should not go into school for a week and that if it didnt drain off i would have to go back for them to make a small incision to release all the puss.. Nice 0.o *Horified expresion*
So i just went in for the second day of my art exam... Which i managed to catch up on thank fuck and i also have like 1 1/2 extra days to make it up next week for missing thursday *gasps with releif*

Uhhm Friday.. slept ova at Panos' ^-^ Uhhm.. Cant memba what happened. WAIT yes i can on friday got Panos ta come down to Stokey with Alex (yay!) and hung out in clissold park by ze Boggle Tree (surprise surprise ).. Yeah as usual smoked some haaaaash drank some beeeeeeeers.. 's all good. . . surprisingly got to sleep really really early on friday.. But i woke up at like 5 and kinda accidentally woke Panos up lol =/.. So just spent hours and hours cuddling and talking =3 Uhhhm Saturday morning went to see Panos' friend Blake, went out for breakfast etc etc.. went back to hiiiiiiiis then all to soon had to go again T_T
So went home did some work went to clissold.. saw Asher ginger Alex Jack B. Lily Shey Peter and also bumped into some safe year 8s ((Max henry and Simon .. )).. then got a phone call from Panos' friend "Willy of the Drums" ((*cracks up*)) and so Him n Panos dropped by =3... YaY

Something for yew all to think about ((in all positive ways possible))..

"I carry my own church
About under my own hat...
Bricks and mortar won't
make a staircase to heaven.
I believe...
that the human heart
is the best temple."

Have a nice day all


Life is what you make it and its yours to mold.. Make it good!!
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SMILE!! Today is the tomorrow you where worried about yesterday

~ THE TAG ~

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Four jobs you have had
(1) Cat sitter ^-^
(2) Scivy in a guitar shop ((soho soundhouse))
(3) Rhythm guitarist in Brave Girl Bob ((still with dat shit man... WOO BRAVE GIRL BOB!!))
(4) .. Uhhhhhhhhhm.. student? 0.o =/

Four movies you would watch, over and over
(1) Spirited Away
(2) Yellow Submarine
(3) The Dark Crystal
(4) Princess Mononoke

Four places you have lived
(1) Agragento, Sicily
(2) Islington, London
(3) Stoke Newington, London
(4) ((it so far ))

Four TV shows you love to watch
(1) Ren 'n' Stimpy
(2) DOCTOR WHO!!!!!!!
(3) Beavis and Butthead
(4) Old School X-Men/ Spiderman ^-^

Four places you have been on vacation
(1) Sicily ((standard))
(2) Monte Rosa ((located in Northern Italy))
(3) Southern Ireland ((toooo young to remember tho))
(4) Corn Wall

Four websites I visit daily
(1) Most obvious... Deviant Art
(2) Myspace
(3) MSN Hotmail ((email..))
(4) Random geetar tab sites... :^-^:

Four of my favorite foods
(1) Enchiladas
(2) Beer??.. tis a form of fewd for me anyway
(3) Maccaroni cheese
(4) SUSHI


Life is what you make it and its yours to mold.. Make it good!!
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SMILE!! Today is the tomorrow you where worried about yesterday

"Dearest Daisy,

I note how you are growing more and more out of control. It has made me very unhappy. You blow every situation out of all proportion and are never prepared to compromise or listen to reason. Above all you assume not only that yours is the only opinion but that it is always accurate and that only you can read situations. Daisy you have to think again. You are rude, obnoxious, overbearing and bullying. Both your father and I are reasonable, kind, caring and loving human beings who don’t deserve this treatment. You are disrespectful and take advantage of us at every conceivable opportunity – especially your dad who is always polite towards you and will always back you. You have repayed that kindness with self indulgence and game playing. Tonight was the final straw and I have decided that enough is enough. I have drawn up some rules which I expect you to follow. As a parent I have rights and responsibilities. As a child you have duties. Quite frankly I am really sad and ashamed to say that the difference between you and some of the girls in the brat camps in America is …. very little.

RULES OF THE HOUSE

You will not speak to anybody in this family as if they were beneath you or as if they were stupid,

You will not be rude either to me, your Father or Mimi,

You will speak to us kindly,

You will not assume you can go out without receiving permission,

Going out is not a right – you have to earn it,

If I say no I expect you to respect that view and stick to it whether you like it or not,

I expect a radical change in attitudes and behaviour from you towards both me and your Father,

You will start to do some work around the house after your GCSEs,

You will start looking for a summer job,

Good behaviour will be rewarded."

My Mother is a fucking nut case.. I speak to her the way she speaks to me.. Yesterday when i was leaving the house my Mum started shouting and swearing a fuckload and aftawards Frankie just mentioned how his parents never swear infront of him.. My parents have never not used that kinda language infront of me.. So why do they expect me to be any different? My Mum forgets all the shit i have done/ been through over the years and still she continues to put all the blame within the family on me. So for example.. My parents basically concluded that i was the one person in the family who causes arguments.. which is a) Bullshit b) Extremely rude c) Why do they think they can just pin everything on me, just because i'm not like them??

My little sister talks to me like i am beneith her.. she uses THE MOST PATRONISING tone ever and can just get away with treating me worse than i treat her.. then again maybe thats it? The fact that im older means i am therefore responsible for the way my little sister acts towards me.. *STOP* No. I do not think so.. I meen naturally if i talk to her in a positive way then thats how she responds. But most of the time shes rude. BRASH. Annoying. And really thinks she is better than everyone else...

For the past.. however long it has been i have been trying to explain to my parents what my "issues" or "problems" with them are.. And whenever i bring it up my Mum starts throwing a fit and threatens to smack me, my Dad just misses my point entirely and they just completely decide to be unsympathetic towards me...
I actually just don't want to be living with my parents anymore. My home isn't with them at the current moment in time. I. Want. Out.
They dont even feel like my familly.. they stress me out n really put my nerves on edge.. something a famillys not supposed to do im assuming??


Life is what you make it and its yours to mold.. Make it good!!
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SMILE!! Today is the tomorrow you where worried about yesterday